Four Years Abroad
Wow, here I am back at my keyboard to write in celebration of year four. I am in utter disbelief! I am feeling all the feels. I’m elated, thankful, heartbroken, joyful, overwhelmed, anxious, excited, sad, and happy all at once.
Rasmus told me he wanted to do this back in 2016, and I didn’t wholeheartedly know what I was signing up for, but I guess neither of us did. I want to thank Rasmus for being my rock through everything.
If you ever want to test your relationship, I highly recommend taking it on a trip around the world for a few years. I believe our time abroad is only further confirmation that we made the right choice in each other.
In the last twelve months, we have lived in four different countries: the USA, Denmark, Australia, and New Zealand.
For anyone who thinks our life is an endless vacation, I’ve got news for you - IT’S NOT. There are so many tears, sleepless nights, and homesick moments. But at the end of the day, we are living our dream! So we won't be slowing down any time soon.
Some random photos from this year that make me smile:
Grief and the Hole in My Heart
Losing my mom in the middle of life overseas has rocked my world. Honestly, I feel like her loss has left me with a deep hole that I’ll never be able to fill. Since losing her, I’ve questioned everything. Who I am, what I’m doing, my goals, my beliefs, and most of all, my place in the world.
As we approach the nine-month mark since her death, I feel like I’m starting to get back on track. And other days, I feel like I’m lost completely. In an act of true transparency, I’ve been dealing with some debilitating anxiety.
Some photos from mom's celebration in June: